Hi all.My name is Heidi. I am a 27 year old female, trying to win the hearts of publishers to become a writer.
I live in New Jersey in front of a plumbing agency. Living in New Jersey is pretty cool. Even
tho most people say it is dirty and it smells. How would I know I live here! I live and grew up in
the suburbs. Sometimes when people think of Jersey, they think of the cities. Yes the cities
are bad as are any. But the burbs, as we call them are much nicer. Rowed houses, picket
fences, all that nice junk. I want to learn how to be a great writer. I love to write and do it as
often as I can.
I have been published in the News-letter called the Tris times.
It is a newspaper for the mentally ill, and made by the mentally ill. I suffer with major
depression and dysthymia. It sometimes takes its tole on me, but I got help and have great
friends to talk to. People in society don't like the mentally ill or fear what they don't know. If
you or someone you love has problems it doesn't make them less of a human being. It
makes a person more sensitive. If you ever meet someone who has a mental illness,
don't run from them. We are people too. I am very high functioning, and more so well off then
most. I have problems but I love life, even when it gets to bad.
When things get too bad,
I rely on my friends, and my own meditations. Looking around me, I can feel how much better
I have it than most people. I was diagnosed in the early ninties. I went through tests after
tests, hospitalization after hospitalization. But it wasn't until I realized that I have to take
control over my own life, was when I had some relief from my depression.
Depression is not something a person can just "snap" out of.
God If I hear that again! It is nothing to be ashamed of.Depression is a serious illness, and
should be treated as such. There are medications you can take. There can be relief. Remember you are not alone. There are other people out here who have gone through, or are going through what you are.. There are many ways how to deal with Depression or stress. I find that relaxing for ten minutes a day helps. And by that, I don't mean sitting and watching television. I mean clearing your thoughts, and breathing deeply. Doing that, can help how you are feeling and can be a great
comfort. Do it now, close your eyes for a moment...Breathe deeply..count, and relax.
Wow didn't realize how much it would help did you?:)
I also have many hobbies to distract me from my sadness. I get times when I can think of nothing but the dark road I am staring at. When I feel that low, I paint, read, color, work on my pages, and keep very busy. I find it helps bring a distraction to what I am feeling, and helps me smile more. I try to laugh and smile once a day. It is so hard sometimes, but I do try. I like to think there is more somewhere that isn't just depression and sadness. It helps me think ahead into the future so I don't sink to the bottom in the present. Dealing with depression has made me a stronger person, and weaker at the same time, but I know without it, I don't know who I would be.
Its good to find out if you have a mental illness. Sometimes it could just be sadness.
When you do have a mental illness or problems, then it is good to follow up with outpatient,
or in-patient care. It is good to remember you are only responsible for yourself. My friends online taught me that. They have also taught me to never be ashamed to be who you are. I used to be ashamed to tell people I have what I do. Accept me
for who I am or don't accept me at all. It's not what the world has to offer, but what you have to offer the world. In my life travels, and understanding of other people, I have realized something. I should never be ashamed to be who I am. Never
be ashamed to be who you are. If someone doesn't accept you for who you are, then they aren't worth being in your life.
I hope that I can someday make a difference in the world,
by teaching that the mentally ill are special people. We ALL have problems right? I believe truly in my heart, that my illness has
taught me a lot. If you can learn from something, no matter what it is, I believe you are the one who is special. So next time you meet someone who has been diagnosed, you may find
that knowledge about whatever the problem is,
is the best solution to whatever fear you have about a person.
I am writing a book for people who don't know or understand what it is like to have a mental illness. I hope in time it will teach people who don't have it, that it is serious. It need to be taken care of.
Sometimes all a person who has depression needs is good friends
to listen.
Thanks for visiting my page!
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